Some people take medications for anxiety. I suppose it would be nice to be able to shut off the feeling, but here’s why I don’t. I’m coming to realize that anxiety is like an alarm system in my body. It goes off when I’m out of sync with my true desires. Experiencing anxiety, for me, is an indication that something is not quite right in my life. Something needs to change. If I shut that off, I would have no indication of whether my life was on the right track.
The silly thing is that when I experience anxiety, I want to hide or zone out. I prefer to scroll through Facebook or watch a movie rather than do something “real”. But that seems to only make it worse.
I’m learning that when I’m experiencing the anxiety, the only cure is to do something “real”. For me, right now, “real” means something that moves my business forward. It could be marketing my offerings, writing the next installment of my channillo.com series, or having a conversation with a potential partner. Doing any of those things eases the anxiety so I know I’m on the right track. They all, however, are associated with nervousness.
All of those things make me feel nervous, vulnerable, and excited. Some people might think that is anxiety. I think it’s just the opposite.
Anxiety tells me I’m stagnated and not living life to the fullest. It tells me I’m not in alignment with my highest good.
Nervousness, vulnerability, and excitement aren’t comfortable, but they tell me I’m going somewhere. I may not always be going forward, but I’m taking chances and experiencing risk. That, for me, is a good thing. I tend to want to play things safe and be the good girl. But, as Laurel Thatcher Ulrich said, “Well-behaved women rarely make history.” And, as John A. Shedd insisted, “A ship in harbor is safe, but that is not what ships are built for.”
I don’t believe my spirit came to this Earth to be comfortable and safe. I think Heaven, or wherever our spirits hang out when we’re not here, is probably plenty comfortable and safe. I think I came here to experience beauty and pain, success and failure, and to learn from all of it. Anxiety reminds me to get to it.
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